5.47 AM
If it's alright - Lindsay Lohan [yeapp lindsay lohan it is.. hahaha]

When you think about your last relationship that ended just like that. You would think 'where did i go wrong?', 'is it me?', 'is it him?', 'kok bisa jadi kaya gitu yah?'.
and you come to this point, this conclusion.

YOU WAS-simply-NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM

then what made you decide to have the relationship?
while now you think 'anjir gw kok BISA pacaran ama dia ya?', 'what was i thinking???'

yes, you wasnt thinking enough dear.

YOU -simply- THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE WITH HIM

you wish you were in love with him so everything would have been so much easier.
but you don't work on a relationship. if you do, then something must be wrong

I should've known the day we met
The way you turned and waved at me i never will forget
Two years later who'da guessed
That we would make it this far just to put it all to rest

And if it's alright i'll stay here till it's late
Until you tell me that it's time that we moved on
And if it takes all night i'll wait here till the daylight
So that i can see that we just don't belong
It's alright, we were wrong

If you're crazy then i'm insane
Two people with the same condition it never goes away
It's not our problem anymore
But lets just call it even when im walking out that door
And oh it won't be easy cause it was hard from the start

We must have met for some reason it's in the sky so think i'm up high
We must have met for some reason
it wasn't a lie, it just wasn't right


it was all seem perfect and lovey dovey at the beginning
But it just wasn't love. And it took you some time -and fights to figure that out
he was a good guy, just not the one you fell for

beautifull mess. beautiful song

4.23 PM
Satu nomor cantik lagi dari Jason Mraz

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man and lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy, Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language and shouted cursive i've been reading
Your style is quite selective, though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is
And what a beautiful mess this is, It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are
Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy, Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing, this relationship we're staging
And what a beautiful mess this is. It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we areHere we are [x7]
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes
Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds, out of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.

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It's ok if both of you are in a really messy relationship. all the fights, drama, contradictions, the torn dresses and stained shirts. it's crazy everyday. but both of you sure that 'we will work things out. no doubt about it. you know it's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes'

and you're finally here. still together
and you know it's all worth it.

2.23 pm
No Other Love - Chuck Prophet

This is one of the OST for P.S I Love You. It was on the scene where Hillary Swank (lupa nama tokohnya) remembering her super gorgeous late husband -played by my darlinggg Gerard Butler. Di scene ini berasa banget kesepiannya si Hillary Swank ini tanpa suaminya yang walopun nyebelin setengah mati, berantem setiap hari but he is truly the one who brightened her life. Huhuhu. Let me tell you, that scene REALLY GOT ME.

This song kinda gives you feeling of surrender. To faith, to the Almighty.
the fact that this song is supposed to be about death, doenst stop me from playing it over and over again. haha.

No other love
Mama, I'm flyin'
No other love
Mama, I'm flyin'
I can go, I can go anywhere
No other love can take me there


gloomy yet sweet.
to everyone we love who already left this world.
R.I.P

LUX 100 DIVA photo exhibition

Here goes...

Pacific Place
1-5 November 2008
"Pameran Foto Cantiknya 100 Wanita Indonesia"

Dateng ya!

3.10 P.M
Transmutasi - Homogenic

Akhirnya kembali juga gw menjadi mahasiswi. Mengerjakan laporan, berkutat dengan perpus cantik kampusku sayang, membuka2 buku2 indahnya [dibuka2 doang masuk ke otak kaga.. hahaha], bertapa di perpus ampe kedinginan ampe kebelet pipis, gaul ke supermol karawaci.. oh i am so embracing my college student days again.

so here i am, trying to find some refreshment from typing my laporan magang.. entah kenapa album Homogenic ini yg dari tadi gw puter berulang-ulang menemani kegiatan gw yg sangat penuh vitalitas ini. I don't know i think the song just suites the mood.
my fellows laskar TA yang sedang mencoba memeras otak membanting tulang menulis laporan magang, you guys might wanna try to listen to them. Endang bok.

Selamat datang di dunia maya
Cukup sudah semua kupinta
Biarkan hariku terlahir sepi
Sendiri kanku rangkai mimpiku

Lepaskan imajinasi dunia
Biarkan kuraih kembali semua

Sampai nanti di dunia nyata
Lelah ku merangkai cerita
Biarkan diriku slalu bermimpi
Sendiri kanku rangkai lirihku


OK, enough of it. let's get down to business -in this case my Laporan Magang The Great

Sometimes you don't understand yourself.
and you ask yourself 'what the hell do i want exactly?' -or 'who' for that matter

and when you don't understand yourself, don't expect people to understand you.
so you better keep things to yourself.
cos when you tell them, even if they are your so-called closest friends, they may come up with something you don't want to hear. Or something you don't expect them to say at this point.

Or maybe they just won't take it seriously. They think it's just another phase of yours that will soon be gone.
YOUR DEAREST FRIENDS DON'T UNDERSTAND IT THAT YOU NEVER MEANT IT TO SOUND THAT WAY.

cos you yourself don't even sure how do you want it to sounds like. Even how do you want it to be.

and the person you wish to understand it the most was the last person you would ever tell.

"jika mampu ku menyatu dalam darahmu, dalam nadimu, agar engkau tahu..
saat semua kata kehilangan makna
dan saat segala upaya terasa hampa"

and the worst thing about this note is that it is about me, not about you.




10 hours or so to my last day here

9.18am
KellySweet - Raincoat

Tumben bgt hari ini cuaca yg keliatan dari jendela kantor -yg gede2 itu, mendung. Hmmmmmm sungguh tidak mendukung untuk bekerja.


Raindrops bang like rocks on my windowpane
I thought they'd never stop Never see the sun again
And I've been sleeping in For way too long
wake up, enough's enough
those days are gone
I'm gonna throw out my raincoat
I hope it's all right
Gonna go find me a rainbow And hang it up in the sky
Blues pass me by
You left me a wreck Just like a rusty trombone
But some things they just sting, Enough to move you along
I'm not gonna wait around I'm throwin' this old thing out




48 hours or so to my last day here